Well, I guess "Monday" has finally arrived for me. You know, the Monday when you will start your diet for the millionth time. Except my Monday is a Tuesday. I know a lot of people that look at their 30th birthday as an opportunity for reflection on life and what they have accomplished. Well, I don't want to wait until I'm 30. I'm ready for my 20's to be the fabulous time in life everyone says they are. I'm tired of feeling left out because of my weight. I purposefully exclude myself from social situations because I don't feel good enough. Here are just a few of the reasons I don't feel good enough and why I want to lose the weight (well, a few of the funnier reasons; I'm love inspiring stories and quotes more than most, but I would be lost without my sense of humor.)
1) I'm a nurse and soon to be nurse practitioner. It's kind of like being a skin cream saleswoman with acne or shoe saleswomen with crappy shoes. I'm kind of supposed to be an ambassador for good health. When I counsel people on nutrition and weight loss, the look on their faces kind of says, "If you really believe all this shit, why aren't you thin?"
2) I want to wear high heels with looking like a drunk hippo.
3) I want guys to hit on me without looking through drunk goggles.
4) I want to be able to try on bathing suits without needing to take a few shots of tequila first.
5) I want to be able to go to a doctor's office without having a doctor attribute every single illness on the planet to obesity, and also not be described with such adjectives as "bulky" or asked questions like "How long have you had these stretch marks?"
Yes, it's not all inspiring, overcoming adversity stories. It's also real life issues such as the ones above, yet no magazine will ever print these. It's the civic duty of people like me to bring up the issues everyone thinks about but no one speaks of. Anyway, to be serious for a moment, my name is Kristen, but most people call me KK due to my last name and first name beginning with a K (yes, the nickname is quite original). I am a 27 year old single nurse. I have been overweight my entire life and have lost and gained weight many times, even winning a local "Biggest Loser" contest a few years ago I enjoy reading other people's weight loss stories, and I thought a blog might be a fun way to chronicle my journey. I'm not sure if anyone will read it, but hey, half the fun is in writing it. I want this blog to be real (and kind of irreverent). Everyday is not going to be a good day...but bad days make for funnier stories anyway.
Monday, September 7, 2009
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